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[Mar/18/08; 8:40pm] |
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I dont know what to believe anymore
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| so much time i've wasted on you |
[Mar/2/08; 3:44pm] |
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dumb fucking cunt
seriously
how can you fucking disappear for 4 fucking days
we still havent even seen you
but oh wait
you were here for a few hours yesterday
but only so you could sleep
and then you fucking leave again
your supposed to be in recovery remember
what about all that stuff you said about how your doing this for your kids
about how theyre the most important thing to you
you cant cone back and expect us to believe that you werent out using
just wait until fucking cecily hears about this
because seriously "mom" if you arent home by tonight
she will be hearing about it in the morning
promise
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| The last time i updated this was my birthday :( so its kinda long and kinda detailed but only kinda |
[Feb/26/08; 6:39pm] |
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music |
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watching TMZ |
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life has been so absolutely crazy this past month
the day after christmas i was kicked out of my house for getting my eyebrow pierced
so i now live with lane and his mommy
its actually been going really well
although i am constantly sick
and i havent figured out why
i think it might be a combination of the cigarette smoke
and the having to catch the bus at 6 in the fucking morning to go to forest grove
my dad is still kinda blah about me living here because he doesnt like lanes mom
which is understandable considering the past
but she really has improved a lot
and my living here i know has helped her
and of course lane is treating me like a princess ^_^
school though isnt going too well
i am trying to get everything together and get all my work done
but being that ive missed a lot of school because ive been sick
plus senior projects have started and im trying to get that all worked out
i am currently waiting for a girl named Val who is a student at North West college of Hair Design
to call me because I am going to shadow her almost at school
Then I am going to do bre and aimee's hair as my final product
I am though already enrolled at NWC for next year and I start july 22nd
I wanted to start early so i didnt have to deal with the larger class
and so I dont get into a summer funk
I am actually incredibly excited about it
Lane has been talking to the admissions people from SOU
and they pretty much said that he can get in
and he is just about finished with his application
its took him some time though because he's so a.d.d. and he's pretty busy
we've also talked about our furture ^_^
its going to be interesting
Im excited for that too.
The musical starts soon!
I feel bad though because I havent gone to any rehearsals
and all last week was required
but last week was really shitty being that I was really sick
plus I also lost my cell phone on the bus a few weeks ago
that was pretty much HELL for me
my phone is my life
but my dad was nice and got me a new one ^_^
and because i had lost my phone nobody involved in the show could really get ahold of me
but now that i have updated everyone who might read this on my life
though i wonder if anyone actually will
im gonna go do homework
because I REALLY need to do that
peace out
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[Nov/13/07; 6:53am] |
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 bouncy |
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music |
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maroon 5 |
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IS MY 18TH BRITHDAY!!!!
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| he wears his heart safety-pinned to his backpack |
[Oct/18/07; 8:38pm] |
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mood |
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pissed off |
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music |
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the used |
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how fucking stupid do you have to be!?!
She doesnt care about you
She doesnt care about your sisters
She doesnt care about herself
YOUR WASTING YOUR TIME!
and Im about done wasting mine
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[Oct/14/07; 7:18pm] |
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a year Four years ago we met
and I never would've guessed
That you'd mean so much to me
but those brown eyes drove me crazy
Just when I thought I couldnt hate that woman any more
*sigh*
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[Oct/1/07; 3:47pm] |
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music |
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paramore (is playing in my head) |
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i dont understand people. i dont think i want to. i want to help though. i wish i could help. i care about these kids so much. they deserve the world over. but with such an awful mother i wonder if theres any hope for them. id probably die if anything happened to them.
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[Sep/15/07; 4:21pm] |
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sometimes i wonder how someone who was so laid back, so diy, could turn into such a superficial bitch.
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| awkward situation's empty conversations |
[Sep/5/07; 11:05pm] |
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mood |
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music |
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S.O.S - Jonas Brothers |
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Ugh!
Why does it feel like the drama has already started and school doesnt event start until tomorrow?
I was looking forward to it but then for some reason it died.
This if anything is definatly going to be an interesting year.
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| I'm done with you |
[Aug/27/07; 11:37pm] |
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music |
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Adema |
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I never thought I'd feel this way about anyone.
I never thought I could feel so much hate,
so much lack of respect for one single person.
I never thought any human being could ever possibly have so much hate
and lack of respect for themselves
or their children.
It just shows how fucked up this world really is.
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